Monday, July 31, 2006

I feel like shring these lyrics. They are to a country song that was new about 4 yrs ago. I feel like I am living by these words!

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Bring On The Rain

Another day has almost come and gone
Can't imagine what else could wrong
Sometimes I'd like to hide away somewhere and lock the door
A single battle lost but not the war ('cause)

Tomorrow's another day
And I'm thirsty anyway
So bring on the rain.

It's almost like the hard times circle 'round
A couple drops and they all start coming down
Yeah, I might feel defeated,
I might hang my head
I might be barely breathing - but I'm not dead, no

Tomorrow's another day
And I'm thirsty anyway
So bring on the rain.

I'm not gonna let it get me down
I'm not gonna cry
And I'm not gonna lose any sleep tonight.

Cuz tomorrow's another day, and I'm thirsty
anyway, so bring on the rain.
Bring on the rain.

Nothing much new to say. We went to a family reunion this past weekend, and it was hotter than hell. The kids all had a great time, so it was OK. Stephen and I got into a huge fight because he found out I smoked ONE cigarette while we were there... but I think we are OK now.

I've got the appointments this week for the boobie test and root canal on the same day.... I should be quite charming that day!!

Thursday, July 27, 2006

I am alive... The Dr dx'd me with 'acute pharyngitis'... WhatEVER.... he wouldnt give me antibiotics because he felt it was viral... I was getting better the next day so I didnt fuss too much. I went to the dentist a few days later, and they gave me antibiotics for an abcessed tooth... and guess what? I need a ROOT CANAL.... I am Soooo not happy about that... It is $1,600 before insurance, and $485 with... thank God for insurance, but that is still a HUGE deal for us. I saved my paycheck for this past week, and when I add my next one to it, I should be able to swing it. I am just so obsessive about teeth, I WONT lose one.. at any cost.
I also got a letter today about my mammo... it said they need to do further testing and examination of my left breast, which isnt a huge surprise either... I called to schedule and they wanted me there today, but I HAD to work to pay for the dang root canal, so I am going in next Wednesday for an ultrasound. I am a little nervous, but fully expected that this would be the next step. I see a removal and biopsy in my future too, but time will tell.

I will keep ya posted.

Friday, July 21, 2006

I am so sick. I had to leave work at 6pm because i was so dizzy and cold. My temp was 102 when i got home. my ears THROAT, neck and almost everything else hurts. I am on my way out to the dr now, i need a SHOT to make it all go away.

Had my mammo, the lmps were visible and i should get a call in a few days to schedule an u/s or a letter in a week if all is fine.

I cant hold my head up so i will continue when i am better.

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

SO I had my appointment. I was very satisfied with this Dr, I should have stayed with him all along. He was stumped as to why they didnt REMOVE the last cyst instead of just biopsying it and then telling me to watch it... he did a full breast exam and found the one I was referring to, plus another one. I hadn't found the 2nd one with my normal breast exams, but he found it. He said they do not feel like the 'normal' fibroids, but he didnt say it felt like anything else either, just not normal fibroids.
Anyhoo, he set me up with another mammo... it is scheduled for this Thursday (2 days) at 8 am. He said if he went back in for any reason at all, he will remove them, not just biopsy and leave them in. The nurse told me she used to work at the cancer center, and even if the mammo is negative, she insisted that I have it biopsied anyway... she said almost ALL of the younger patients who did find out they had cancer, had negative mammo's.... thanks for scarring me! I know she was just trying to be helpful.. and I am not super worried... I know it's a serious situation, but my take on it is hey... if it's bad, at least my insurance company will buy me new perky boobs! I wont have to worry about paying for new ones!
Please don't take offense to that, I just have to try to keep a sense of humor about it no matter what happens.. I wont let myself get bent out of shape... it will all be FINE!

He also started me on a new BCP called YAZ... I am on Necon 1/35 currently, he said the hormone dose is alot higher in Necon.. so he gave me some sample packs to try out of the Yaz. There are 24 active pills and 4 inactive, so your period is only about 3-4 days, and he also said PMS is usually alot less .... AND there is a diuretic in it, so may lose a few pounds (YAY) he followed that with... but dont lose much, you are in great shape now (ha, right) and you dont wanna go below 130... MEN!

Other than that.. I found out there will be no K-4 at the private school this year. Which means Ava wont be going. In reality, it is exactly what I wanted all along. To have my baby at home the year before she starts school, and for me to be home with her. We will have plenty of time to do whatever! She was upset at first, but was really excited about it when I told her it's just gonna be me and her. We can go to the park, go shopping, go to the beach, etc.... just enjoy being together like we have never really gotten to. I dont work till afternoons, so we will be quite the pair!

Till tomorrow~

Monday, July 17, 2006

I am nervous. I have an appointment with the GYN tomorrow.. I havent been to him since like 1997... he delivered Ian.. and ME when I was born 28 yrs ago.
I am nervous because the lump in my breast that I had biopsied 2 yrs ago, has changed. They told me it should be fine and not need any attention UNLESS I noticed a major change in it... It is bigger all of a sudden and the roundness has changed. I know a fibroid should always STAY a fibroid, but I am following medical advice. Knowing me, if I have it checked it'll be nothing.. if I dont it would be cancer!
I am trying to get a copy of my last pap from my general dr... he did one in December or January I believe.
I dont look forward to another boobie smooshing... but thats probably what is in store... like they arent flat enough already?

Anyone want a couple of kids without the pain of labor? I have 2 that I am offering... they are real cute, potty trained, and can wipe their own ass.
My 3 and 5 yr yr olds have been arguing and fighting with each other from 7am till 9 am... of course once I got up, they stopped and started watching TV... WHY not while I was trying to rest?
SO something weird is going on around here... Stephen and I like each other... it is weird.. we've been holding hands, kissin and cuddlin... I am not complaining, but it is just WEIRD!! He has let up alot on the fussin at me about work.. so maybe the decreased resentment has helped.

I work tonight, Wednesday, Thursday and Saturday (I open.. 5 am!). I am ready for a vacation... a paid vacation.

Friday, July 14, 2006

Yawwwwnnn....
I baked until 1 am! I am a crab this morning... but hey I called in my Lortab refill, so things should improve soon ;o)
I can hardly walk with this foot thing.. I wish I knew the problem.. I know I am on them too much and my shoes probably arent what they should be... but they dont hurt while i am working, only once I take my shoes off and try to walk around at home.... when I get up in the morning I cant put them on the floor... I need to soak'em.

Nick finds out who is the father of Phyllis' baby today on Y&R.. I've got to figure out this dvd recorder because I HAVE to see it! I need to dvd Dr G, Skeleton Stories and whatever else is on discovry health tonight... I am addicted.

Stephen was in rare form this morning.. woke up ready to romp... what is with men?

Let's add up my hours this week shall we?
Sunday - 8
Monday - 8
Tuesday - 8
Wednesday - 10.5
Thursday - 7.5
Friday - 9
Saturday - off
end of pay period...

51 hours right?

so that is $300 regular pay and $165 in Overtime.... $465 minus tax isnt too shabby? Especillywhen I was bringing home $130 a week before... now I'll bring home $over $400 for one week... hey I deserve some respect!

Out.

Thursday, July 13, 2006

Geez.. my sister just called me and said after 3 hrs, everything I baked is gone... they want me to make more, they've gotten compliments.

I will buy more mix from work tonight and make more.. the cupcakes werent so hard, i could have them all done within an hour.

The forecaster just let us know the weekend will start at 96 degrees and by Monday it will be 98.. NINETY EIGHT degrees... migranes are soon too follow.

Man isnt it tough to get old? I can't even move when I wake up in the morning.. my feet are too sore to touch the floor, my neck is stiff... harumph!!

So I got the funniest email yesterday.. it's definately one to share! Here it is:



A woman and a man are involved in a car accident on a snowy, cold Monday morning. Both of their cars are totally demolished but amazingly neither of them are hurt.God works in Mysterious ways. After they crawl out of their cars, the woman says, "So you're a man. That's interesting. I'm a woman. Wow, just look at our cars! There's nothing left, but we're unhurt. This must be a sign from God that we should meet and be friends and live together in peace for the rest of our days". Flattered, the man replies, "Oh yes, I agree with you completely, this must be a sign from God!" The woman continues, "And look at this, here's another miracle. My car is completely demolished but this bottle of wine didn't break. Surely God wants us to drink this wine and celebrate our good fortune." Then she hands the bottle to the man. The man nods his head in agreement, opens it and drinks half the bottle and then hands it back to the woman. The woman takes the bottle and immediately puts the cap back on, and hands it back to the manThe man asks, "Aren't you having any?" The woman replies, "No. I think I'll just wait for the police...."
MORAL OF THE STORY:Women are clever, evil bitches.Don't mess with them.

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Oh HECK yes... !!

I had a very ROUGH evening... I got home at 9:30 after working 11 hours and had to bake cupcakes and cookies for a bakesale. I found out I was out of flour and Oil.. so i went to my moms house, barefoot, to get some.. when i came home the glass door shut on the back of my foot.. and aye yai yai!!! Not 10 minutes later I kicked one of the f'ing computers he has laying in our living room... and about 15 min later, after deciding I wasnt getting OFF the couch again to avoid injury... Stephen walks over to me and smacks my bad knee with his knee... and I went to cussing! It was an accident, but I couldnt take anymore injury!

Hopefully I'll do better today... I should look into a padded suit.

On another note my NEW tounge rings should be in todays mail.. I got another silver ball and an orange glitter ball... hehe... next will be a glow in the dark!



Out

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Is there some reason that Aiden (5) MUST get up at the ass crack of dawn EVERY day? You could put him to bed at 3 am, and he'd still be up with the chickens... doesn't he need sleep to gain all of that energy??
I didnt fall asleep until after midnight... Stephen was feeling frisky, and while that puts him RIGHT to sleep, it leaves me wired and crazy... My poor feet are so sore too.. all of those long work days have gotten to my piggies... I am on straight thru Saturday too.. I'll have 9 days straight.
I am not complaining about the hours... the pay will be helpful, not that I get to go have fun with it, but it keeps our power turned ON!

Out

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

The interview went REALLY well! He feels pretty confident, but there are still 2 more people to interview. Stephen said that he and the interviewer hit it off really well and did alot of BSing between questions... he brought up alot of the projects he has done, that have cut down on several HUNDRED man hours, and gave the guy alot of good ideas. He said he seemed impressed.. expecially with how quick Stephen was with his answers to the technical questions... like we ever doubted his disgustingly smart brain?

Stephen has his BIG interview in a few hours... I am SO nervous for him! His 'friend' that got him this job in the first place is also a cantidate for the position... the little bastard has been cheating too.. he has been calling the recruiter and interviewer earning brownie points.. and today Stephen called him to ask for the interviewers cell number so Stephen could invite him to lunch... the shit head got the number and CALLED HIM HIMSELF AND INVITED HIM TO LUNCH... Yeah he got Stephen this job in the first place, and is a black belt in Tai kwan do (or whatever) but he is a gnats ass away from finding out what happens when you piss off a woman!

But, every man for hiimself.. I've got great confidence in Stephen... this would be a 10% raise, and boy do we need that. I'll definately update when we know...

I've got to be at work around 1:30, but will know how it went for him around 4 or so... we should know who got the job by friday.

Monday, July 10, 2006

Ok Dori, I did it.. I set up a blog JUST so I could be on your 'friends' list. Now you know all I will do is bitch and moan about Stephen, the kids, work, and ailments, but hey, at least i am getting it out!